My sister and I, out of breath, stood stock still, trying not to let the air creep back into our screaming lungs too fast for fear of fainting, and for the very real fear of being heard. It's extremely difficult to run hard for miles, while being chased, and then once relatively safe, to catch your breath in silence. Both of our hearts were pounding with the effort, the sirens echoed in the distance, screams could be heard erupting out of the black night.
I could hear a lyric in my head as the agonizing pain shot through my entire body.
"Now all the criminals in their coats and ties are free to drink martinis and watch the sun rise." That's from "The Hurricane", Dylan's controversial song about Ruben "Hurricane" Carter, a boxer who had famously been accused of murder in Paterson, New Jersey. Dylan seems to speak to me when I'm in times of stress. Growing up in a sheltered life in Pennsylvania but hearing the stories of Belfast in the Seventies had still not prepared either my sister or myself for having to literally run for our lives.
Whenever violence broke out, everyone ran. You ran as fast as you could away from where it had occurred, but you ran. Belfast was a neighborhood-driven town, and it was all based on religion. The Protestants had their portion of town, the Catholics had their part. You absolutely never wanted to get caught out anywhere near the other's part of the city. If you did and something happened, it wasn't anyone's fault but your own. I spent three youthful summers in Belfast, ones I'll never forget for a variety of reasons, but the least of which was learning firsthand that men would stoop to hate for reasons that I didn't understand and would never truly comprehend. After a while, the real reasons for the hate evolved into a sadistic one-upsmanship when it came to blowing things up and firing guns into unsuspecting crowds, and setting off car bombs. The ghosts of Belfast never rested, the angry warriors of days gone by, their appetites for destruction never truly sated. A thousand year civil war, never ending, never failing to destroy and denigrate, a war without end. This was terrorism at the forefront, but instead of watching it happen on television, I was in the middle of it, along with my younger sister. Both of us had been told what it might be like, out there on the streets, and to watch everything we did and everywhere we went and everyone we talked to, but we were too young and headstrong to pay attention to the warnings.
When my sister and I ventured out walking on a fine evening, we thought we could walk down to the Catholic part of town and just stroll about as if were in fine farm country, where people sit out on their porches and wave hello as if they've known you their entire lives. We couldn't have been more mistaken in that belief. We crossed one block too far, and I was recognized. I should tell you that my Father was at one point a fairly large figure in a certain Catholic organization that I'm not going to name by name, but if you know anything about Northern Ireland, you know what organization I'm talking about. Everyone knew who he was in Belfast. I can't say that I bear a striking resemblance to him, but I hadn't even considered at the time that there were probably people at the airport that took our pictures and knew that we were in town. That's more than likely what happened. Dad wasn't kidding when he said that we shouldn't walk around. We were recognized, chased, hunted. Guns were fired. My sister said she felt a bullet whiz past her ear at least twice. They were aiming to kill. We couldn't even raise a laugh at the ridiculous thought that we, who had never even thought about what this conflict was truly about, were now in the middle of a full scale riot over the fact that we had strayed one block too far into the wrong part of town.
She looked at me from the darkness, and as my eyes adjusted, she held up a finger to say "Don't say a word, they are still looking for us." I knew exactly what she meant.
"Here comes the story of the Hurricane, the man the authorities came to blame, for somethin' he had never done"It was nothing like a rock and roll moment, that's for sure. We stayed an hour or so in the deserted house we had flown into, waiting for the sirens to die away, waiting to hear the voices stop. We crawled out the back door, into the back garden, got our bearings, and began to slink back to our part of town.
My Dad was waiting up for us, he had heard that we had strayed. He was more disappointed in me than her, as the two of them were already on the rocky road that would encompass the rest of their adult relationship. I had been thoughtless, careless, stupid. It was a lesson I wouldn't learn enough, sadly. He did not yell, though. He shook his head. He sighed. He smiled, slightly, at the thought that we had been able to get back alive. His only words were "My son. My daughter. Never, EVER do that again, hear?" I shook my assent, but I knew if we came back here, I'd manage to fuck up again, it was in my nature.
We were on a plane 48 hours later.
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I'll post the quiz answers on Saturday. Enjoy your day!
Labels: Bob Dylan, Lifestories